MY SOLITARY LIFE......

i JUST CAME HOME FROM HAVING SUPPER AND SPENDING SOME TIME WITH PAUL..THIS IS SO HEARTBREAKING FOR ME..HE IS QUICKLY LEAVING ME BEHIND...NOT THAT HE DOESN'T RESPOND BUT HAS AN INNER LIFE OF HIS OWN...WHEN I GOT THERE THIS EVENING HE WAS SITTING AT A TABLE WHERE A FELLOW FRIEND WAS LOOKING AT A PHOTO ALBUM AND WAS DISTURBEDD THAT PAUL WAS NOT JOINING HER IN LOOKING AT THE PICTURES...I SAT DOWN AND TOLD HER THAT HE DID THIS BECAUSE IT WAS HER FAMILY AND HE DIDN'T KNOW THEM...THEN SHE SAID WELL, I WILL TELL THEM WHO THEY ARE BUT PAUL STILL WASN'T INTERESTED...I WALKED WITH PAUL TO HIS ROOM AND VERN IN HIS WHEELCHAIR FOLLOWED US AND CAME INTO THE ROOM AND ASK ME THAT AFTER I HAD PUT PAUL TO BED, THEN I COULD COME AND PUT HIM TO BED...I STAYED FOR EVENING MEAL WHICH AS USUAL WAS VERY GOOD...I AM KNITTING A LITTLE BEAR TO SEND TO A CHILD IN AFRICA SO I WANT TO DO A LITTLE KNITTING TONIGHT...IT HAS BEEN A LONG DAY AS I WENT TO MY DOCTOR THIS AFTERNOON AND HE WANTS TO SEE ME NEXT WEEK AND THEN WE WILL THEN GO TO EVERY OTHER WEEK...HE IS HELPING WITH THE DIFFICULT TASK OF REALIZING THAT I TRULY AM LOSING MY LOVE AND WILL HAVE TO PICK UP THE PIECES AS BEST I CAN...GOODNIGHT FOR NOW....MARY